In answer to the question, "How was your week?"
This week was really good and really hard.
It was emotionally, physically, academically, and spiritually challenging and draining. I gave my ALL in all of those areas this week (except maybe in spiritual, that was more of God working in me than me doing the work). I came through in many ways, but I also failed in many ways this week.
One minute I was running through a meadow because I was so happy, the next minute I was gritting my teeth trying not to say something I would regret.
One minute I was praying "You're amazing, God!" and the next minute I was praying, "God, what--why--how, URGG!"
One day I wanted to journal about how perfect life is and the next day I wanted to angrily scribble about how stupid and unfair life is. Both times, I ended up not writing anything at all, believe it or not.
This week I felt like a child and I also felt like an adult. One night I would be venting about how I have no idea what I'm doing and how much help I need, and (literally) the next day I was thinking "This isn't too bad, being an adult. I can handle this."
One day I was praising God for how many wonderful people He has placed into my life and then the next day I was asking God why in the world he put "this one annoying person" into my life.
One day I accused someone for not "being there" enough, and the next day I felt like an idiot because she has actually given up a lot of her time just to make sure I'm doing okay.
One day I was daydreaming about graduating high school, and the next day...well, I was still daydreaming about graduating high school. (Some things don't change.)
One minute I remembered how God has come through for me so many times that I've been hurt in my life, and the next minute I remembered how God came through (and forgave me) for so many other people I've hurt in my life.
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times."
Glennon Melton-Doyle has a great word for life and how much it see-saws: "Brutiful."
Life is brutiful...Brutal AND Beautiful!
Both/And. Mixed. Joined. Together. Tough & Lovely. Brutal & Beautiful. BRUTIFUL.
So, yeah...that was my week!
How was yours?